I miss the sensation of going to these events. Conference, young leaders forum, competitions… I’m so lucky to have experienced it all in the past when I was in college.
I miss how it feels when my feet step up on an unknown territory, the chilly winter air, the people with different faces, skin tone, accents… the monuments, museums, parks… it makes me feel like being “citizen of the world”, not just “citizen of Indonesia”. It makes me realize that it’s such a big world out there, and I’m totally nothing, just a speck of dust in this huge universe.
I miss the pre-conference preparations… days of finding cheap flights, crafting ideas for essays, late-night group discussions, rehearsal for cultural performances…
All these things enrich me in a way I’ve never thought possible.
Will I ever do this again, now that I’m employed? I miss being my younger self, someone who was not afraid to always reach higher, someone who had ambitions after ambitions as her fuel of accomplishments, someone who lived her life fully.
I don’t know if I ever would. But that desire still burns, albeit being an extremely reduced flame. I want to see more parts of the world. More adventure. More people to meet. More life experiences.
See you someday!